Sleep, Is That You?

I'm knocking on wood as I write this, but Ella has been sleeping in four hour chunks for the past two nights, which means that I am slowly regaining my sanity!  With only one middle-of-the-night feeding, I've been feeling more and more well-rested, which seems to be such a luxury these days.  She's even sleeping on her own in the co-sleeper, which is wonderful and so much progress from having to be held!  Though she's still a noisy sleeper (grunts and moans and wiggles abound), I think we're slowly getting used to the noise and allowing ourselves to sleep through it until she really does stir and lets us know she needs to be fed.

Every day has been a blur of sleep, poop, eat... wash, rinse, repeat.  Some moments I feel the baby blues and get completely overwhelmed.  It's hard for me to imagine how I'll handle the two pugs and a little baby once Adam's mom stops staying with us.  Thinking about taking Ella out and having to nurse and attend to her needs makes me even more nervous.  I'm hoping it's a new mom thing, and that as we gradually figure things out and get comfortable in our new roles as parents, things will naturally work themselves out.  Right now I'm just trying to focus on the present.  I'm completely in love with my little girl, but the adjustment of having her here is definitely challenging me emotionally and physically.  I'm sure most moms go through this, I'm just surprised that the feelings of frustrations and anxiety are so strong.

But all in all, we are all doing the best we can.  For having been here for only two weeks, Ella is thriving and learning so much.  I look forward to seeing what another two weeks will bring!